Mourning Time

by Team Smile and Nod

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1.
WORDS: I don’t know how to change my mind The way I process, the way it works Anything embarrassing, anything that hurts I push away… I’ve gone there and You’ve gone there and We go there And try to heal And you Are the only one Who has helped me breathe Truth and fact Back into me. I prefer to forget who I was when we met I’m just glad that you were attracted To helping heal my blocked out hurt You knew there was more to me Than my fictional character You knew how to lead her back to me Back to us Cuz, I’ve gone there and You’ve gone there and We go there And try to heal And you Are the only one Who has helped me breathe Truth and fact Back into me. I don’t know what else to do with this I know I’m still missing a few pieces but I also know I’ll never be where I was I finally like myself and I believe in me And I wish- I wish for your confidence in me In my honesty- in my ability I wish- I wish that you could completely trust me… Cuz, I’ve gone there and You’ve gone there and We go there And try to heal And you Are the only one Who has helped me breathe Truth and fact Back into me. You are the only one who has helped me breathe…
2.
I Wonder 03:44
WORDS: Life’s been looking kind of bleak From under these redwood trees I wish you were here with me but You’re not. The rain makes me feel all alone Fills the river while I sing this song No one’s here, just me I’m all alone, all alone And I wonder where you are I wonder where you are. I can’t quite get a hold of my life Nothing ever seems just right I dream of you holding me So tight. NO. Reality isn’t my world Need I prove this again for you? How can I make my would open to you How can I, how how can I? Cuz I- I wonder where you are I wonder where you are. I can’t hang alone much longer Reality hiding you I can’t hang alone much long Without you with- without you with- Without you with- without you- cuz I I wonder where you are I wonder where you are.
3.
Unknown 03:24
WORDS: Desperate- for reason However- make-believe Sometimes I wonder If the faithless have more faith Believing that we don’t know And it will be okay Willing- to kill Willing- to hate Believing whatever Their leaders proclaim Ignoring the truth Our world displays Fear- of the unknown Fear- stunts our growth There’s power in knowing Not knowing is okay There’s strength in understanding It might be better this way Love- within Love- is everything… Believing in people To do what’s right Miracles within Our human insights Desperate- for reason However- make-believe Sometimes I wonder If the faithless have more faith Believing that we don’t know And it will be okay
4.
WORDS: I don’t know how you could run away from me I know I did it to you, but I came back It’s not your time to fly Can’t watch my father cry Can’t breathe, think without you here I can’t feel. You told me when your mother died Nothing was harder to feel You said your connection was lost Unable to ever heal And I believed you… I believe. Don’t disappear Come back here… It feels sadistic to sleep, sadistic to eat I’m angry I can’t tell you how angry I am Not at you I know you wouldn’t choose I know you didn’t choose You used to tell me you would die If something were to happen to me Where does that leave me…? Don’t disappear Come back here…
5.
Experiment 02:59
WORDS: What is that you’re scared of When you see a girl like me Are you worried that I might Rub off on your kids And they’ll turn gay Just like you were in college But that was just an experiment A one time, two time, three time thing That was just an experiment A silly little love fling a ding-ding And then your hubby with his lovey beer belly Has got his memories buried so so deep But he can’t forget that at the key party His uhh was fucked by the hairy bear daddy And he came so hard, so so hard So so hard he still has wet dreams But that was just an experiment A two time, four time, six time thing That was just an experiment A silly little love fling a ding-ding But hey you can’t blame him cuz you were the one Who suggested that you all should switch it up And she was so willing and ready And she wiggled and giggled as soon as your tongue… Touched But that too was just an experiment A five time, ten time, anytime thing That was just an experiment A silly little love fling a ding-ding So tell me how is it that I’m the weird one When I am committed to the lady I love I’m not lying or cheating Yearning or burning Dreaming or scheming The next fancy orgy And yet I can’t marry cuz you’re too scared That somehow gays will destroy the family You’ll do it yourself by hiding yourself And pretending that your life is just an experiment But that was just an experiment A one time, two time, three time thing That was just an experiment A silly little love fling a ding-ding
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If You Stop 03:32
WORDS: I’ve got this look on my face To construe that I care And I guess I’m lying To you and me both But really- who cares? And that’s the tough thing It’s hard to stop Telling the truth Once you start And you start to realize How full of shit we all are If you stop to think If you stop to think When you stop to think When you stop to think And you can make yourself sick When you realize we don’t have a choice Without changing the foundation of your life… If you stop to think… So you pick and you choose When you abuse your morals Your hopes, your heart And you know as long as you’re living within All you learned as a kid You’ll always be stuck… If you stop to think…
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WORDS: I don’t know where these hopeful words come from My mom passed away three months ago- tomorrow I’ve been thinking about fear how it controls the masses We get so comfortable in states of turmoil And surrender ourselves to our leaders But hey I’m just a kid- dealing with my own shit And I’m stunted by my own thoughts of death So where does my hope come from? Can you feel it, can you feel it? So how can we come up with a new excuse every day Lack of motivation to portray that person we might be in our mind Pass me that joint, I’d rather numb mine Float away with smoke So where does my hope come from? Can you feel it, can you feel it? So filter out those nightmares Filter out those dreams The only thing I know for sure is that I know nothing So welcome disillusion, I miss your soothing thoughts A cushion for my headache, I’d rather sit and watch. So where does my hope come from? Can you feel it, can you feel it?
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She's Gone 04:58
WORDS: That foreboding feeling I know so well Flooding my body, taking over myself My mind pleads with this feeling For no casualty By body just knows when there’s been A tragedy I got no dream to warn me this time Must of blocked out my subconscious Must of blocked out my mind It’s just too terrifying when You’re mama dies… I cried to the crisp New Year’s Eve night I shook in my girlfriend’s arms Had her hold me tight I had to call my siblings Cuz my papa couldn’t talk He just kept repeating, repeating She’s gone… Some pains don’t leave even when time passes Some pains don’t leave even when you think they should have It’s been over a year still doesn’t seem real I guess when some people die It never really does seem real Cuz she’s gone… So I’ve cried for my mom I’ve cried for my loss Feels like we’ve been cheated Cut off from our bond I’ve cried for my papa He lost his life’s partner I’ve cried for my sister I’ve cried for my brother I’ve cried for my girlfriend How she’ll never fully know her I’ve cried nephew And I’ve cried for my uncle I’ve cried for her friends Cuz she was so much damn fun Now I’ve replaced these tears With straight shots of rum I’ll have a shot for each of us And I’ll stop when I’m done When I’m done When I’m done Cuz she’s gone…
9.
Build 04:37
WORDS: We build- reconstruct Piece together- what- was torn apart The constants keep us While constantly changing We maintain what matters most With our salty sea of sad And our raw bloody hearts We maintain what matters most We build- reconstruct Piece together- what- was torn apart Shifty eyes, shifty minds Shifting all around us Swiftly sing a different tune The opportunity has aroused The excuse- properly executed Swiftly, swiftly all around us We build- reconstruct Piece together- what- was torn apart Cycles cycling, rhetoric repeated Again if not now when and then Blindness perpetuated Faith misrepresented Hope coagulated Again if not now when and then And then and then and then… We build- reconstruct Piece together- what- was torn apart.
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Extinct 03:31
WORDS: We consume, we consume We ignore the warnings We push and push And take and take And gut and burn And scratch away The foundation- of our home But the earth will live After we kill us So many before So many extinct So many before So many extinct So why do we think we’re different The signs abundant As our earth was The science has proven Just what we have done Yet money and greed spread faster, faster Blinding us to the dire need to change To change, to change Yesterday. So many before So many extinct So many before So many extinct So why do we think we’re different All these minds, all this life All our dreams to re-conceive To reconnect To learn to heal To teach ourselves What is real Happiness doesn’t come in a package And packages thrown away in the trash They don’t, they don’t, they don’t Disappear. So many before So many extinct…
11.
WORDS: Your sad, beautiful eyes Glossy from when you cried And why are taught It’s bad to feel what we feel When we feel so sad… Intrinsically programmed to survive Placated and soothed by familiar lies Confused and disturbed as our world collide What will we decide? This history Of make-believe Pretending we are happy We soothe ourselves With fantasy Exchanging truth for normalcy Intrinsically programmed to survive Placated and soothed by familiar lies Confused and disturbed as our world collide What will we decide? And your sad, beautiful eyes Glossy from when you were strong Your sad, beautiful eyes Glossy from when you were strong Let yourself feel And be alive Your sad, beautiful eyes Glossy from when you cried.
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WORDS: You must have heard me beg you to visit me in my dreams Cuz there you were so beautiful- healed and smiling I guess I never realized the pain you were going through But I felt with your calming eyes The comfort you now know. I’ll never feel complete resolve with all the words unsaid I’ll always feel a little lost, incomplete, dead You are a part of me; you are a piece of me My heart, breath You are a part of me; you are a piece of me My heart, breath Breathe, breathe Breathe, breathe You’re still alive in me Oh no no mama No don’t leave me now mama, mama No don’t leave me now mama, mama No don’t leave me now mama, mama So now in these waking dreams I walk alone. Tears streaming down my cheeks Wanting my mom So pathetic I feel at times Seizing my own pain But I guess that it’s all I got Still happening. I’ll never feel complete resolve with all the words unsaid I’ll always feel a little lost, incomplete, dead You are a part of me; you are a piece of me My heart, breath You are a part of me; you are a piece of me My heart, breath Breathe, breathe Breathe, breathe You’re still alive in me Oh no no mama No don’t leave me now mama, mama… I’ve got your green eyes; I’ve got your hands I’ve got your depression mama, mama…
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Except You 02:06
I don’t really wanna be around anyone That is, except you I don’t feel like I know anyone That is, except you And I get so pissed off I get so bored I get so annoyed I get so so disappointed When I’m with anyone That is, except you… And I try, I try I try to relate I try, I try I try to escape My brain When it tells me So many are so mundane But I get so pissed off I get so bored I get so annoyed I get so so disappointed When I’m with anyone That is, except you… And maybe I am exclusive And maybe I am reclusive And maybe I am elusive But I don’t really wanna be around anyone That is, except anyone No- I don’t feel like I know anyone That is, except you…
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WORDS: Striving to find the humor In all that pains my heart At some point laughter Keeps me- from falling apart And I feel a connection To those in my life who have died Cuz I remember the humor That kept them alive So this morning I mourn As I’ve mourned for years But this time I laugh To replace the tears And remember the love And remember the warmth Remember the laughter Remember the heart, yeah Maybe this morning, This mourning time has passed But maybe this mourning time will last Forever. The very last time I saw her We had a piece of cake There was no special occasion She said, “You never need a reason To have cake.” She pulled me and Katie aside She said, “Spend some time with me.” I can’t remember what we talked about I just remember I felt good and loved and happy. So this morning I mourn As I’ve mourned for years But this time I laugh To replace the tears And remember the love And remember the warmth Remember the laughter Remember the heart, yeah Maybe this morning, This mourning time has passed But maybe this mourning time will last Forever. Moving on and forgetting Are things I’ll never do But I guess at some point Ya’ gotta, ya’ gotta, ya’ gotta Get through And feel some peace, and feel some strength, And let yourself laugh with the memories… So this morning I mourn As I’ve mourned for years But- this time I laugh To replace the tears And remember the love And remember the warmth Remember the laughter Remember the heart, yeah Maybe this morning, This mourning time has passed But maybe this mourning time will last Forever.
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released March 31, 2011

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Team Smile and Nod Columbus

Team Smile and Nod is an electro folk pop duo from Columbus, Ohio that formed in 2004. About a week after swapping demo CDs, Rich Ratvasky (artist-producer) surprised Kara E. Sherman (singer-songwriter) with a remix of one of her songs. Inspired by the remix, they merged their musical styles into an upbeat, melody-driven, politically-inspired fusion. ... more

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